Wednesday, July 21, 2010

a plan and a future

So a lot has been going on in our little babies life. I won't begin or even try to explain all the legal things going on mainly because I can't share them, but mostly because I don't understand them. All I know is that we are all fighting to keep her and are praying that in the end we get to.

I've been thinking a lot about her life already so very complicated. I know in my heart that God knew everything about her and everything about her life before even time begin. But it doesn't stop me from hurting for her. I praise God that she is so small and does not have a clue of what is going on.

When my Mom was telling me today about some of the things that are going on right now I couldn't help but think of this verse:

Joshua 29:11
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

I've heard this verse so often when a student graduates from high school or finishes college and begins their life. It is a very fitting verse for all of these occasions, but never has it spoken so strongly to me as it did today thinking of our sweet baby. The Lord has mighty plans for her even at only 6 pounds and 4 ounces! He knows all that will happen in her life and wants to prosper her and not to harm her. And boy do we all feel the same.

Everything that we are doing and hopefully the state is doing is with the intention of giving her a hope and a future. Though we don't know what her future will be like, we are attempting to direct it in our own human abilities. When my Mom told me about what was happening I immediately started thinking of all the things we could do as humans to try and fix the situation. But it quickly dawned on me that it is only God's plans that matters. And it is only by his ways and his will that her little life should and will follow.

Like a said in a couple posts back, I am loving her with all I've got. And that's all I can do for her now no matter how much I want to protect her. It will hurt at times and I am prepared for that. But I will continue to remind myself that the Lord knows the plans he has for her and he will direct her future. With only a few weeks lived on this earth behind her, this little girl is already taken over the hearts and lives of our family. We love you sweet baby no matter what, you are ours.

1 comment:

Jenn said...

{this is lexie i just don't feel like switching accounts}

I love you katie...
And am so so so so so SO excited that you FINALLY get to meet her tomorrow (or saturday if y'all are going strait to Abilene!)
Your gonna falll even harder in love (if thats possible!)