limbo

I feel like our life is stuck in a sort of limbo right now. I know I mentioned in one of my earlier posts that we'd be experiencing a lot of changes this year. And we will, but they are very sloooowwwwllly happening. At least for now. Nothing is worse than knowing change is coming, but there's nothing you can do to prepare for it yet.

Like I said in an older post, I'm a planner. I like to look at my future plans and begin working towards them. I know in May we will be moving away from Waco. While we have plans of where we could possibly be moving, there are also other opportunities that are arising. The Lord is really teaching me patience in many ways right now. I know that where ever we go and whatever we end up doing he will take care of us and provide no matter what.

It's funny because I know in about a month and a half life is going to get extremely hectic and busy we we're going to be packing, cleaning, moving and adjusting to a new life. But right now it feels like time is standing still and not moving. The type A, driven side of me wants May to hurry up and get here so I can begin doing something. Anything at all. But for now I must wait.

For now I will enjoy our life in our first apartment in our first city we've lived in together as a married couple. I'll enjoy all the unique areas and locations this small city offers us. It was only three years ago that I was going through these same feelings ready to get to this city and move into our new apartment. Crazy how time flies!

For now I will trust in the Lord and his plans for our future. I can only plan up until May 19 and after that, for now, I don't know where we'll be or what we'll be doing. But for now that will be enough. I will not worry, I will not grow anxious. Or at least, I'll try not too. :) I will choose to live in this moment and not miss the blessings that are all around me.

I will choose to not live as if in limbo, but as if this day is the most important day of my life.